Ohhhhh, she's setting the bar so dang high. (Not me)

The woman in my first post 3+ years ago seems almost unbelievable. I mean I want to hate her and be her at the same time. How can such a woman exist? I am certainly not her. Someday I might inch closer to her but not sure I have made much ground on that front in all these years. Lord, help me.

Where am today is a chubby pregnant lady with a great 3 year old and a big funny husband.

Life is good (and hard). I am so blessed but sometimes making it through the next 5 minutes is a challenge. I want to be really good at being a wife and mom but I will tell you it's taking time. Lots of it. I also teach high school math in the hood and live in texas with my cute family and dog Ruby.

I hope to post a few times a week to journal what's going on because I feel like it's such a whirlwind and I am going to somehow miss it if I don't write it down somewhere. For example, I woke up this morning with a three year old arm around my neck. When she realized I was awake she whispered, You're best mommy, mommy." I hope I don't forget those things in this messy wonderful life.

Proverbs 31: 9b-31

The Wife of Noble Character
A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
She gets up while it is still dark;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her servant girls.

She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
"Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all."
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.
Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.